Just Keep Swimming…
Busy. B-U-S-Y. My life right now, is yours? It’s that end of year crazy busy time, plus we are gearing up for vacation which means doubling up on things to be able to go away for a while. Yes…a while. Toes in the sand are coming soon.
Last night, I went to my workout class, the first time I’ve taken my instructor’s water aerobics class. I absolutely LOVED it; however, my calves were crying something else, but it was so refreshing. At one point, we had to run back and forth in the water across the pool. I could hear my instructor saying my name to come more into the shallow end so I don’t drown. Now, I was only in the 4ft, but I’m little so 4ft of water is actually pretty deep for me.
It’s sad, right?
After class though, I started thinking that’s my life right now. I’m a workaholic, to the point that I could work all day and be completely oblivious to the world around me. This wasn’t a struggle as much until I worked for myself. I have no start or end time, it’s just a constant cycle of always being ‘on’. Lately I keep running into the deep end where I can’t keep my head above water, but I’m doing it myself, all I have to do is run back over the shallow end where I can truly enjoy what I’m doing and the world around me. It’s so simple and yet so hard all at the same time, isn’t it?
These past few months it’s as if I forgot how to say NO. I always feel bad saying NO. Always…it never fails, but you know what? If I say NO to something it’s freeing up my time to saying YES to something else. That was valuable advice that I heard again this week and so true. So over the summer, I’ll be saying NO more and YES to the things I really want to share or really want to take part in that make me excited, not something I’m going to dread later. Plus, I’m planning to say YES to my kids a lot more too within reason of course. Did you know that work is supposed to just be a small part of our life, not our entire life? I’m reminding myself of that daily. It’s so easy to drift off into the deep end. The thing I’m realizing is not only is it my own fault, it’s also in my control. I can control what I’m doing and saying YES to.
This past week, I watched my son at his awards assembly and couldn’t help but get teary eyed. Let’s just say I need to take stock in Kleenex now before he graduates high school someday. He received awards for reading, spelling, and phonics. He actually got 100% on every single spelling test this year. I am SO proud of him. SO PROUD. It’s funny how proud your kids can make you to the point you burst out in happy tears, right? That’s how I felt. He has this crazy passion for learning, he absolutely LOVES it, and I realized I don’t want to miss out on all of this time we have together. I’m going to blink and he’ll be out of the house. He is already about to be a 2nd grader. He was 1 when I started this blog, and I literally feel like that was just yesterday.
My daughter, she’s a hoot on a daily basis. She’s as sweet as can be and yet as mean as can be all at the same time. Is it okay for me to say that? Let’s just say when she’s not happy, you will know about it. She’s decided to start having tantrums when we go to the store if I even think about putting her in the cart. The issue…if I don’t she’ll basically tear up the entire store. The struggle is real. I realized this week it’s almost the end of May and all year long I kept telling myself I would take the morning off and take her to the zoo on a Friday morning. Normally she’s playing and I’m working or we are running errands on Friday mornings. Well, it’s May and I never did that. I felt guilt at first but then I realized I have the power to change that. I have the power to say NO to everything else on a Friday morning and say YES to her. The reward will be far greater. So this summer as my kids are home with me, I’m planning to spend as much time as humanely possible with them and really try to get some type of balance between work and real life. Wouldn’t it be fun if the kids were excited to go back to school in the fall because they need a break from mom? HA! Let’s turn the tables!
I’m sure this boundaries issue isn’t just me either, is this something you struggle with? Let’s work together to say NO and not feel bad about it because we know that means we can say YES to something we are very passionate about.
Sound like a deal?
Now, I’ll be saying YES to a box of Kleenex while I cry my eyes out that my kids just finished another school year and that means they are getting older…again. Of course, I stay the same age.
Let’s just chew on that for a bit.